I drank sorrow
and pissed its tears
into cupped hands
then folded them
in prayer
but god was silent,
I ate sin
became bloated with remorse,
knelt down and passed
a raucous whimper
of begged forgiveness
but god didn't hear
I waved a weary hand
to the heavens
but, busy, god didn't see
so I ate some more
and more still,
not that I hungered for it
as much as it seemed the
only dish being served
with a side of pain
so I ate that as well,
I ate pain
'til I shit its malevolent ghost,
god was in the next stall
but ignored my plea,
I wiped my confession
on graffiti walls
but god didn't read
so I flushed my religion
and chose fasting to "feeling"
as I wathced my hopes swirl and float,
be sucked down
into the porcelain throat of
faith,
vanished...
like my cries
into the empty bowl
of god's ear
7/14/09 Debbie Berk